R-day

Tomorrow's it.

I wonder how will they react once I finally hand them my RL. Will they be surprised/shocked/outraged? I am excited to know. Jay hasn't given me the copy of my approved VL for next week. Should remind him about it again later tonight or tomorrow when he arrives, lest he might forgot to give it to me and turn things around once he finds out about it. I guess Jay will be saddened by this surprise. I can feel that it's a little off-timing given that we are starting to move to full blast. But, resignation is every employee's right. Consult the Labor Code if you must, or your company handbook for that matter. One only had to follow the proper procedure specified in those books and off you go.

Yna's long-awaited opportunity is coming. Gotta prepare.

"The worst thing that you can do is to not love yourself." - Nelly Furtado

Prayer and Hardwork

"Work hard. Pray. Pray. Pray. " - Mr. Jose Remo

"Stay put." - Mr. Art Muñoz

"eheheh." - Mrs. Marny Nable

A step closer

I'm a step closer now to getting a job at PBSP. I don't want to preclude the possibility of it by saying that I am 100 % sure of getting the job there.

Anyway, let me share here what happened in the interview there today. I was invited for an interview today with the technical specialists of the TBLINC project of PBSP. It to take place in their office here in Manila. The schedule was at ten am today. Supposedly, Rafi was to go with me but he was not feeling well. So I went alone.

I had an interview with two doctors. I can only recall their first names which are Dr. Gani and Dr. Dennis. If they will take me, I will be under the supervision of Dr. Gani as a Technical Assistant. The two guys gave me the impression that they were nice. The interview went a little informal with me seemingly interviewing Dr. Gani first. I asked him questions about the project and the nature of work that I might have to do with them. Dr. Gani was much more reserved than Dr. Dennis. He asked less questions. I think there were less questions this time compared to the first interview that I had with Sir Enan. It is probably because there was more discussion about the specifics of the job rather than solely looking at my personality and my attitude towards work. That doesn't mean to say they didn't ask about that. Dr. Gani for instance asked for my career objective after I asked him about the objective of the project. Also, Dr. Dennis asked me if I have any apprehension for working with them knowing that the project is funded by the USAID, especially that I am a political science graduate. I would not write here what my answers to their questions were.

In all, I think the interview wasn't bad after all. I have a strong feeling that they are seriously considering me for the post. (fingers crossed.) In that case, I will soon be starting out on a new chapter in my working life very soon.

Talking about frustrations

It took me the whole weekend to calm down and understand why I've been feeling so mad and terrible the last few days. It probably helped that it had rained during those days off. I had the opportunity to be one with myself and contemplate about my life, what's been happening to me lately and why had I been feeling the way that I did.

I realized, I've been putting so much pressure on myself for wanting to find a new job as soon as possible. Add to that the condition that the job should be something closer to my heart, something that I would really like to do. Not that something is wrong with that. I strongly believe that if I want to have something, then I should work very hard to have it. Plus, nothing is wrong with dreaming big. The problem comes in when you give yourself too much of a pressure. By pressure, I mean, 1. setting deadlines which are quite unrealistic given that being employed quite entails being at the mercy of your prospective employer or 2. thinking so much about what other people might say or think about you.

I blame it to frustration why I have been acting so negatively not just to myself but also to the other person I love most. And though, I believe it is normal, I know on the other hand that I can do much better than act like that. Frustration seeped in when, after applying to four companies, no job offer has been showed to me yet. It could really suck out all the energy in you.

One more week to go. I'll either wait for the call from two more companies where I have pending applications or I'll go directly inquire to them about the status of my application. Fingers cross, I hope the response would be on the positive, if not, time to keep thinking for Plan B.

In the meantime, while I still am currently employed, I better do my work well and cherish the time I have as a teacher. I'm positive that I'm not stuck here for good. This is just the transition. In the end, you have to have faith in what they say that some wishes take longer time to come true.

LRT 7 and what he's thinking

I heard from Kuya Ricky that DOTC has already inked a contract with a certain corporation for the construction of LRT line 7. The line will be connecting SM North EDSA to San Jose del Monte, Bulacan. Transportation time between these two places will be lesser and it sure will be a big relief to many workers living in the outskirts.

What crossed my mind, which unfortunately didn't crossed his, is that it will be a good idea to be investing in a house and lot in the SJDM area now. I believe prospects are big for certain SJDM lots to be prime lots in the future. I feel that investing there would be good since the price isn't too high yet. Aside from that, I think it's a good idea as well for obvious sentimental reasons.

This only goes to show that he doesn't have that extra-sensory perception that I wish him to have. Really, he cannot guess what I am thinking. Perhaps, nobody can really do that.

Lesson for you Yna: Say what you want to say. Don't expect people to know what you are thinking. You'd only end up disappointed.

Mad to sober

Alright. I'm upset and I can't keep it to myself. On the other hand, I don't want him to know that I am. Still, I am keeping a strong front.

So what if he got a call and I don't? I knew from yesterday, my gut feel is strong, that those people wouldn't be considering me for a post in their highly capitalist-oriented company. I knew it. I knew it, but still I feel so upset.

They thought I'm not cut to do it. How could they be so sure? Oh well, I had given that impression to them in that less than 15 minute interview. How unfair it seems to me now?

He has a strong chance of getting in there, and I sincerely hope that he does. I don't know what my chances are. Perhaps, it is very slim.

Dear God, if you are reading this, please grant that I find the right career for me soon.

I don't want to wallow in this feeling anymore. I shouldn't be acting so bitter when we should be celebrating.

The best of luck to my Bes.

To you Yna, your turn will come. Be patient.

P.S
As you can see, the emotion in this entry has changed from super mad to mellow.
I got a call from Ems, a friend of mine who works there. It probably helped that I was able to let it out. I'm more sober now.